It
has been a hard pill for me to swallow,
That
an experience that I strongly felt with another, to them, was significantly hollow.
Time
spent, ideas shared, and the emotions that followed
Failed
to read his intentions, actions showing he cared….
But
I learned and won’t wallow.
In
reasons why…
Better
yet, excuses.
So
easy to create explanations, I know their uses.
Given,
still my arguments against the claims…absolutely useless.
Somebody
else’s mind and heart, doesn’t matter my 2 cents.
Besides,
We
all know inside.
Regardless,
with true romantic love comes compromise.
With
someone you care deeply for love doesn’t spark, then immediately die.
Perhaps
in my situation there was more than meets the eye.
As
a woman I could play the blame game, but it takes a believer to except lies…
Or withholdings.
Whatever
the case.
Still
think I gave up too much, too fast.
Sometimes
I forget there’s no race.
I
know I shouldn't dwell, but sometimes I think:
“what if I had given more time and space”.
“what if I had given more time and space”.
A
lot of times, unexpected love gives way to the chase.
The
only thing was……
Nobody
was running for me; add that with these unforeseen circumstances,
I
see how I handled my heart irresponsibly.
At
the drop of a dime to aid to a lover with charity,
You
cannot expect the same love.
That’s
not genuine, learned in my moment of clarity.
Not
saying that my intention to help lacked spontaneity,
But
those dreaded expectations really uncovered my naivety.
So
what does one do?
When
a person has a lot of worries and not one of them is you.
Do
I stay a friend? Maybe just keep in contact to show my love is true?
Or
Do
I walk away, burn the bridge in the right that I have nothing to prove.
The
latter...
The
option everybody I know agrees to….
But
even with that, I’ll just live life and see what’s due.
-Me :)