Random OutBurst 1

I'm not ashamed of my problems, my mistakes.
Going hard, in the fast lane, no time to push on the brakes.
Pain, pride, passion, those situations I make.
Slow progression, wrong perception, the wrong mirror of me you take.
Lower the stakes.
Buddhism telling me high expectations was the reasons for our sake.
Our relationship, I couldn't shape
Not your superwoman, can't wear the cape.

Not myself anymore

A person trying to appease you,
Like, turned to love, turn to attachment, didn't mean to.
If I could love men and still be myself, maybe it wouldn't fall through.
In relationships, always a shift, somebody drifts, if I could just stay cool.
let them go, they come back, greatest lesson since school.
But I've always been the person to think I'm the exception to the rule.
I push, you pull.

Hopefully you don't feel opposite of love, and I'm not talking hate.

But I'm still not ashamed.

Apologizing, texting, messaging, calling, totally took the blame.
Owned up to my mistakes, hoped you'd do the same.
Not mad, acceptance.
That cause and effect I heard about finally came.
Karma
Not hating you, we're both the same.
What life's about, these emotions, actions, thoughts, ours to tame.
Probably tired of me, need a break, perhaps forget you know my name.

I'm growing, and this is beautiful.

No longer afraid of anyones separation.
Although reading about 4 noble truths, still allowed to have hope of reconciliation
Self realization
Finding a strategy to life
More than just a relationship, a path that led me to a light.
I'm not going to explain, as it's early on in this fight.
But there's a reason for everything, if you don't wish to speak to me, that is beyond your right.

Again, acceptance.

Using my best sense
What I don't want, the opposite of letting go
hindrance
Not holding on, away, not dense.
What I've always lacked, self control, introspective.....patience

-Ebony 05.07.2014 [^_^]